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26 May 2026NewsletterA Barrier Wearing a LanyardThirteen psychiatrists refused my referral before one said yes. What years of being treated as unreliable taught me about ADHD, addiction, and the practitioners whose caution becomes someone's death sentence.
19 May 2026MusicThe Story Behind “Grace on Fire”Why I wrote the song that named the album - what it cost, and what it gave back.
18 May 2026NewsletterWhat You Did Isn't Who You Are: Life After an ASIC BanI have an ASIC ban and a bankruptcy on my record. Nearly a decade on, here's what shame got wrong — and what rebuilding identity actually looks like.
6 May 2026NewsletterStability Feels Boring. That's The Point."Just stop using" is a lie. Here's what an ADHD brain actually does when life finally goes quiet — and why boredom is the point, not the problem.
28 April 2026NewsletterWhat "Not Ready" Is Actually Costing YouThe lie of "ready" has a price tag we never tally. Most of us are paying it without knowing. On readiness, procrastination, and the cost of waiting to begin.
7 April 2026NewsletterRock Bottom Doesn't Feel Like Rock BottomRock bottom isn't a clear moment — it's a recognition that often arrives years later. Why the cinematic version of hitting bottom is wrong, and dangerous.
28 March 2026NewsletterWhen Your Past Lives Online and Won't Let GoYour worst chapter is now a permanent search result. Most of the advice about "managing your online reputation" misses what's actually at stake.
10 March 2026NewsletterHow Professional Shame Really WorksA hiring manager, a tax officer, and a window blinds company all taught me the same thing about professional shame — and what it actually demands from you.
4 March 2026NewsletterWhat Rehab Actually Taught Me About Reclaiming My StoryRehab doesn't fix you. It teaches you containers — the structures that make the gap between intention and action small enough to walk across.
20 February 2026NewsletterWhen the Diagnosis Rewrites the Story You Told YourselfThe diagnosis didn't fix me. But it rewrote 40 years of self-narrative — and gave me back a version of myself I'd never let exist.
14 February 2026NewsletterI Didn't Want To Get High. I Wanted To Feel Normal.Most addiction stories get the motive wrong. For me, drug use wasn't about pleasure-seeking. It was about regulation — and untreated ADHD was a big part of why.
10 February 2026NewsletterThe Empty Promise of AI TherapyAI can simulate empathy but never acceptance — acceptance only counts when rejection was possible. The structural limit of AI mental health support.
9 February 2026NewsletterEmbracing the Fall: Understanding True Qualifications Beyond Traditional SuccessTraditional success teaches you to climb. Falling teaches you something different — and arguably more useful. On the qualifications a CV can't capture.
4 February 2026NewsletterWhat Brené Brown Taught Me About Emotions — And Why I Wrote a Song About ItMost of us have three words for what we feel. Brené Brown found 87 emotions we routinely conflate. Why naming them precisely changes everything.
1 February 2026NewsletterWhy Your Worst Day Might Be Your Best QualificationResilient people are 50% more likely to hit career goals — and resilience is built through adversity. What if your worst chapter is your best credential?
27 January 2026NewsletterLearning How to Sit With the MessI used to think progress meant feeling better. Now I think it sometimes just means staying. On distress tolerance and what recovery really asks of you.
26 January 2026NewsletterThe Transformative Power of Detox: A Journey from Chaos to ClarityDetox isn't the dramatic version people imagine. It's quieter, longer, and harder than that. Here's what early recovery actually looks like from the inside.
24 January 2026NewsletterWhen Music Becomes a Way BackSometimes the things you can't say yet, you can sing. How songwriting became part of how I moved through a fall from grace — and back out the other side.

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